miscshitandothervariousstuff

I mostly know about computer technology and video games. I'm not an expert in anything else. I'm not even an expert in myself. Too often I have no real idea what is going on in my body or my mind. And yet I find myself in a crisis, one that has been persistent for many years now. Maybe even decades. I'm not sure there's a resolution or a happy ending. Part of it is the decay of humanity, and by that, I mean how we continue to die off. My parents, my oldest brother, my aunt, my niece. All of these people and many others are gone. And then there's the seemingly endless parade of pets. Cats from my youth, and dogs from my adulthood. All gone. Part of it is the realization that I am stuck in this life. As a kid I saw the world as simple, easy, and that I would be able to find my place in it with ease. And as a Basque/Hispanic young adult who was white and spoke English, it wasn't that hard. But I didn't understand how my decisions would affect my life, and I...